Saturday, March 10, 2012

Facebook Deletion *GASP*

So I deleted my Facebook.......yup. It wasn't an easy decision at first, but the longer I thought about it, the more I wondered why I had not deleted months/years before. It's been a weird load off my back. I tried convincing myself that I had friends on there that I didn't have contact with anywhere else, which was true, but it was not enough to keep me on the number one procrastination site in the world. Day in and day out I have found myself just reloading the Facebook page to see if there are any new mundane posts about stuff I don't care about. Witty post, sports updates, "my life is so much worse than everyone else's", I just got sick of them. I wasted so much time on that instead of being productive.

When I went to "Deactivate" it the first time, I noticed a new button that allowed a full archived download of all my photos, posts, blogs etc. That was almost the final push for me because I didn't want to lose all of my photos on there. I could lose the posts, but my photos were very important to me. I clicked the button to archive it and get it ready for a download. I'm sure they have everything about me already archived and ready to view for anyone but I just wanted to stop it where it stood. While I was trying to deactivate the account, the top of the page displayed pictures of me with different friends with word bubbles saying "You don't want to be friends?" "Don't leave." or something similar to those...  I deactivated the account for a few days in hopes that it would have the file ready for download when I got back on. When I logged back on to see, it was as if I never clicked the button. Ugh. I clicked it again and  to my pleasure was finished within the hour. I had made a final post letting people know what I was doing and that my account would be permanently deleted very shortly. I hit the download button and 1.4GB of my last 6 years was being downloaded on to my laptop. About an hour later, done.

When I went to delete my account, I could not find any section that was easy to get to. I actually had to Google how to delete it and a link from the search brought me to a page on Facebook. I clicked the delete account button and it warned me that it was a permanent action and could not be reversed. I agreed to delete. It asks me to enter my password again. I do so. It then asks me to enter a CAPTCHA(A CAPTCHA or Captcha is a type of challenge-response test used in computing to ensure that the response is not generated by a computer.)This usually consists of a simple quick glance at a word displayed and typing it in the box provided. This was not your typical CAPTCHA, this was Satans CAPTCHA. It literally had all the words melding in to each other. I had to re-load a different word about 6 times and I finally guessed the correct letters. Facebook REALLY didn't want me to leave. I felt like I was solving puzzles in order to be released and be free. After it was all finally done, Facebook told me it would take 14 days to delete my account permanently and I had the option to sign in and re-activate it. NO. JUST DELETE IT NOW!

The Facebook app on my iPhone, apparently, could  access my text messages. This also made me happy to delete my account. The content of my texts could lull an infant to sleep, I really have nothing exciting or ground breaking to say in them. Who does? Anyway, it's just the whole idea of my privacy being invaded in ridiculous ways. Google and Facebook are really starting to break those privacy barriers and it makes me feel really uneasy. Ironically, I am using a Google blogging site. This digital age is awesome and terrifying.

Since I have deleted my Facebook, I have found more time! I know...can you believe that? I cleaned out my room, got rid of a bunch of clothes, organized, went through old paper work and even started eating better. I can only associate my desire to do these things with the subtraction of that awful site. I've started eating a lot better, mainly because of a new app called MyFitnessPal. I searched "calorie counter" on a whim and it came up with that app. It tracks what you have eaten, the nutritional content of the foods you eat and estimates what your daily calorie intake should be. I have lost 11 pounds or so in about a week and a half. I have also been using the treadmill. Things are looking up.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Walk for ALS

Did the walk for ALS with family and relatives. It's always fun to get people together for a good cause. I have grown to love this yearly tradition. Lou Gehrig's disease killed both of my grandfathers. It's bugged me that every year, the whole event seems very shoddy. It does not seem like it's planned very well and they have lost a lot of sponsors over the 5+ years we have been attending. Meh, I'll always enjoy being with family to walk for such a great cause.

As lame as it sounds, I drove my first time on the highway today. It really was not bad at all. I drove to the walk with my love, and I drove up to New Hampshire to go apple picking with my brother and his wife. It was the perfect day to go too! The air was chilly, the sun was out, the wind was blowing the leaves around and the smell of NH and the orchard put me in such a good mood. I had an amazing 2 days off in a row, I wish it would be that nice every time I have a day off.

I also raced my sister in-law home on the highway. I definitely could have won!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

New Car and.....Potheads?

I now have my 2004 Honda Civic LX on the road. It feels amazing. The license and registration and insurance is all taken care of.

Everyone asks how it feels to finally have the freedom to drive now, and I tell them every time that it feels amazing, because I no longer rely on other people. Of course it makes you feel independent and that you are not needing other people to drive you around, but I just feel way better because I don't have to make them work around me. I no longer have to be THAT guy, needing a ride to somewhere and making the other people go out of their way to help me out. I knew this before I got behind the wheel too, but it is much more noticeable now that I drive. Most people behind the wheel should not have a license and are self absorbed.

I now have a reason to work more and more. Having this sense of responsibility and having important bills to pay is a step in the right direction. It feels lame to be at this point of responsibility so late in life, but it makes me feel better knowing that people that are at a point of no return and will forever be in the position that they are in. The more I think about that, the common factor is that they smoke weed. I can't stand smoking in any sense, but pot smokers take the cake in thinking that they are better than others. As funny as it sounds, there is a pot smoker arrogance about them.

I work with one pot head in particular. He is not a bad person, I don't think he would have any ill will towards anyone unless severely provoked, but his pot head attitude about everything makes me despise him. He constantly is saying/doing things for attention. He is like a walking Snapple bottle cap. He'll toss out random weird facts and consider himself a genius because he told you something you didn't know. He also acts very, very, immature. That's a lot coming from me, I still laugh at inopportune farts and funny faces. He has no filter of when to joke around and when not to.

My job is far from important, but I feel no matter the job you do, always do your best and keep it professional. Him showing up for a shift high as a giraffes asshole and expecting me not to get mad, boggles my mind. His eyes glazed over, his posture slumped, his speech very slow and in his hands is a nice big package of BBQ ribs. 30 mins of slurping and finger licking and he is finally done and just sits down not doing anything. He and other pot heads I know, think that no one notices but in reality, they stick out like a sore thumb. I don't give a fugg what you do outside of work, as long as you don't do it here, and that it does not effect you during the job....

The whole pot head POV(point of view) is that every thing is okay, and people shouldn't get so mad over things and relax. "Everything is so small when you look at the big picture, you should not get so mad over small things," except when you do something that you think is not a big deal, but it could possibly get me in trouble, it is a big deal. When you kiss a fellow male co-worker on the neck and stroke their backs ONLY to provoke some sort of response, it comes off very badly to other people.  Maybe making bird noises for 30 seconds to a full minute might be a better idea? Yes, he had done that a few months back. He continued making bird noises until I turned around and looked at him, to which he replied, "What? It's Kazooie." (referencing a video game from 10 years ago) The whole time while he was doing it, I just kept telling myself he'd stop soon and not give him the satisfaction of a reaction, but I caved after a minute. It truly is harmless things that he does, but it's his attitude towards you after you tell him he shouldn't be doing it. Just that I am uptight and I am getting mad over nothing.

I have a lot of pot smoking friends, not necessarily pot heads, but they do smoke it semi-regularly. A lot f them wonder why I am so against it. It effects everyone differently, yes, but when you smoke it, it puts you in the same category as the pot heads that smoke it. A pot head stereotype. "It's not addictive" Neither is alcohol, but these alcoholics must be faking their addiction to it, right? "It's natural, it doesn't harm people." Smoking anything will not be good for your lungs. Compared to cigarettes, it is an angel. "Alcohol is legalized and worse than pot. Pot does not effect you the same way." Obviously not, but pot will still effect you in ways where you should  not be operating a vehicle or any machinery, and saying that you want to legalize another way to "get fugged up" makes no sense. People act as if it does not effect them at all in any way, when it obviously does.

I don't have the patience to write out more about my hate for pot and annoying co workers, so I shall end this now. One day I will write out a list of things that this kid does.

If you actually do read these posts, let me state again, I write this as it comes to me. I do small edits if I do not like something but I don't correct everything as if it were an essay I'd hand in to college, so forgive my mistakes.

P.S. This initially was supposed to be about life right now and my new car but evolved into something completely different!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Loss

My 15 1/2 dog was put to sleep on August 17, 2011. I have had her in my life since I was 9 years old. This was a hard loss for my family and I. Losing a family pet is such a different feeling than losing a close relative. Both losses hurt tremendously but I feel more upset and uneasy about the loss of my dog. I feel terrible because I wanted to console her and make her feel comfortable with words and tell her that her pain would go away. It was hard enough coming to terms with the decision to put her down. It was definitely the right decision but I hated this inability to calm and console my friend of 15 years.

It ended up being an even worse situation when the vet injected her with the anesthetic. He managed to get about a 1/4 into her vein and he claimed that "it burst". At that point she began struggling and whimpering. It was horrible. We had to wait for nearly a whole minute while he got another syringe and filled it. He came in and began to inject. Blood started getting pushed back into the syringe and he gave one final push. It all went in, her body went down, her eyes went from wide from fear to cold and barely open. It was over. The vet checked her vitals and pronounced her dead. My family cried, hugged and said goodbye.

 I will always miss her, this kind of pet loss has made me appreciate my other dog so much more. I really won't take these wonderful animals for granted.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Hells Kitchen 8/15/11




Carrie on this season's 'Hells Kitchen' acts JUST like Dee from 'Always Sunny in Philadelphia'! She's a friggin nutjob. Just had to throw that out there.


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Typical

Nothing new today, I worked and got to see the psyche ward candidates known as the general public.
  
The Elderly 
It started with the old people that should not be driving anymore, or should at least be getting tested on some sort of monthly/yearly basis. It scares me to see the same old people over and over on the road pulling off scary maneuvers that could more than likely kill someone. By scary maneuvers, I mean the simple act of pulling up to a spot when going to fill up their cars at the gas station. A task that is so easy is butchered on a daily basis by elderly customers.

There are a couple of main offenders that come to mind when I think of the elderly customers. The old man who has a piece of paper plastered to his front dash that reads, "Remember to keep your eyes open." I could not think of something more frightening at the time when I first saw that. How many people are in danger when this man gets behind the wheel of a car....How about the elderly woman that literally looks like she is dead, and when backing into a spot misses another car behind her by CENTIMETERS. When asked if she was aware that she almost hit the car behind her, she replies, "What car?"

Regardless of age, I will always treat people with respect unless they show me otherwise. I take extra care to the elderly and I am as patient as I can possibly be. I think of my grandmother and how I would want everyone else to treat her with the dignity and respect that I do. They drive me nuts AND scare me, but I would never treat them any different than I would my own grandmother.

Crackheads
Next on the list was the daily crackheads that occupy our wonderful city. Easily spotted from far away, these wonderful specimens twitch, scratch, speak loud, reek of ciggarettes and present the beautifully scabbed faces when looking in my direction. Often calling out to random strangers, co workers, or myself with that patented crackhead raspy voice. Sentences usually starting with, "HEY BUDDY", "HEY BRO",  or my personal favorite of not even addressing us and yelling out random sentences,"HOW'S THIS WORK?" "DO I SCAN THIS?", "REGULAR RIGHT?"

Now I know that drug addiction is a disease, and I know sometimes it's damn near impossible to kick these terrible habits, but I truly have no patience or caring for these individuals. Going to serve one of them consists of repeatedly asking them to put their ciggarette out, followed by asking if they have their discount card and then being told to use a  bunch of gift cards with random dollar amounts on them. How do these crack heads get these gift cards? EASY! Steal items from the store, bring it to customer service and receive a gift card for the price of the product returned! The company enables these crack fiends by giving them free product form the store, or in this case, gas for their car. Card dollar amounts often show as $2.99, $4.67 etc.

Our most recent crack heads have upped the ante and started trying to sell "gift cards" to random customers. "$50 for this $100 card Ma'am!" Security had to be called because we had so many people complaining to management before I could even notice what they were doing. I swear the city is being over run by these scummy pieces of crap.

Ignorant People
Another frequent at our establishment is the ignorant people.  I would NEVER treat someone differently because of their race/religious belief/color of skin. On a daily basis we have customers of all kinds. I greet everyone the same way. To avoid any misunderstandings, I am going to keep this very general and not get down to specific races/color etc. of people. Just an understanding, this includes all people.

Just today I had a woman who had an accent give me attitude while I tried to figure out what she wanted. When all was done and the pump was started, her immediate response was, "Good boy, very good boy."(VERY condescendingly) Others give me looks when I ask them how they are doing. I've heard mutterings of skin color on multiple occasions. I have been accused of being racist because I ask  for their money before pumping so I can set their pump to the correct amount they want.

I know that some cultures act VERY different from one another. What is acceptable in some places can seem taboo in others, but when you live in the U.S.A. you should have a general understanding of how things are performed and how some actions are perceived. The language barrier can be extremely aggravating for both sides at times, but because you can't speak proper English does not give you the right to be mad at me.

 People Who Thing They're More Important Than They Really Are
The person that is always more important than everyone else. This includes people who cut lines and block others in because they have been waiting longer than everyone else. They have places to be! The people who are on their cell phone because the conversation could not wait until after they were done with gas.(get mad when they don't receive exactly what they wanted because they were not paying attention) The people who ask you questions and when you give an answer, you are wrong. "How does this work?" *You explain slowly and detailed* "No! I did that, that does not work. I never have a problem with this. It's you people and the machines."

I didn't put much time into editing this post. I was more interested in getting down the thoughts before I forgot them. I am sure in every line of business you are going to run in to people who are just plain rude and ridiculous, but working with the public is just such a different experience than working in an office job. I had a funny conversation with a customer the other day about how we could write books and make reality T.V. shows about our jobs. Any job working with the public would be entertaining to most because you can see how crazy people act when they don't get their way. I shared two stories of my own with him that would probably be RTV gold! Youtube is definitely one of those outlets that is a source of reality at it's best. Some of the videos that go viral are because of how ridiculous people act to other people. I really should look in to making the book that I had an idea for many years ago. Just collecting stories from co workers about their own personal experiences in the store. It would definitely be a fun project.

Monday, August 8, 2011

'From Dust'

I have recently purchased 'From Dust', a new summer release Xbox Live Arcade title. For those who are not familiar with the look or feel of the game, it is a game that has the view of the older real time strategy games such as Warcraft, Age of Empires, Command and Conquer etc. You have the ability to zoom in closer to the map to make more accurate additions with your spherical cursor or have the camera farther away which gives the ability of moving to another section of the map quicker.

Your goal is to lead your small tribe to different totems around the small map. For every totem you activate, your tribe will create a small village that will grant you a power that will aide you in completing the level. (infinite land, jellify water etc) After activating all of the totems, your exit stone will be highlighted and you must lead your tribe to it. As the game progresses, the levels become slightly more difficult by adding elements of lava and tsunamis that arrive/activate every time the countdown in the top right corner reaches zero. To battle these elements you can send your tribesmen to specific rock-like relics that protect your small totem village, the red preventing lava and fire damage and the blue preventing tsunami damage. The secondary mission in every level was to create enough plant life in the map to unlock more of the story and challenges. There is a small percentage bar to show how close you are to getting to 100%. The way to do that was by having a water source somewhat close to your totem villages so that your lush vegetation could spread over fresh earth.

I had a lot of fun when I first picked this game up. I found myself moving earth and creating my own landscape, reforming sand mountains to my liking around my tribe's village. The way the terrain moved around reminded me a lot of the map editor in the Far Cry game series. As I went in to the later levels I had to adapt a different strategy each time, my main strategy was to isolate my totem villages from dangers of water and lava by using the lava to create taller mountains. One of my huge downfalls on some of the maps, was forgetting about brush fires. All it would take was a slightly misplaced lava drop or lava flow to ignite the vegetation and slowly making its way to my village until it burned it to the ground and had to be rebuilt. I have enjoyed this game so far, but the farther I get in to the game, the more I feel like there are some things missing. I feel like there could be way more natural disasters and more elements to the game. Worrying about fire and water was getting a little old after 6 levels, I wanted more. Animals? Earthquakes? Other Tribes? I don't know if the addition of any of those would make it better. It almost seemed like the creators of the game wanted  to base it around those two main elements of fire and water. Whatever the case may be, I feel like it needed more.

 As much as I felt that there could be a lot more to the game, I still thoroughly enjoyed it and I'd recommend at least a demo of the game to people to see if they like it. This game was amazingly unique and unlike anything I have played before. The idea of the game is what really sucked me in, I love when companies use something that that has not been done before. Hopefully they can build off this game and use it as a stepping stone to a much better game in the future.  Final Rating 7/10